The Win and the Victory Celebration

I will say that struggles will get you down. you don’t know how to deal with how 

you are feeling. confused, dried out and just burdened. We all feel like this. we all have 

struggles. i want to let you know that you don’t have to do it alone. it is common 

knowledge for us Christians to go to God when things get hard that we cant do on our 

own. I often think about but don’t act on it.

For the past week i have been struggling with what my relationships with others 

are like. I got confused about how i feel about them. should i hang out with other people 

or stay. I love who i am hanging out with but i was also left with this feeling of maybe i 

should be with others. make friends. What has held me back is that i alway have to 

Work at it and feel like no one wants to invest time into me. i have to invest time into 

them and work hard on it. i get tired and worn out. sometime i feel like maybe no one 

really wants me around. maybe thats why no one really talks to me. 

But i know that God through my Struggles he will Give me strength which he 

does. tonight i had an amazing encounter with God. I was struggling with my Emotions 

on how i should feel with one of my friends. i felt so torn and warn out. but God spoke to 

me. It was funny. because he was listening to all my prayers that i have been praying 

about this week. He spoke to me and John you are going to do great be a friend. a 

friend that can be there for others. even though i feel like i don’t have many friends here. 

sorry if that sounds bad. i have friends but ones i hang out with and spend time with, get 

to know and have meaningful conversations with. He was telling be just to be a good 

friend don't think of anything else just be there for them and you will be fine. I will Supply 

you with what you need and trust in me. 

I can not simply ignore that. It came from God. My Father. He sent Jesus down 

for me. he took all my sins upon that cross. How could i not follow Him. Cant you hear 

me! He died for you and for me! Thats how much he loves us. Who couldn't follow God. 

He is the only one that Loves everyone. He doesn't care what you have done. If you 

follow Him and walk along side Jesus. There are many rewards. Be faithful. even when 

it is hard. Jesus will reward you. It is not all about “good” works. Its about a relationship 

with Him. You’ve done drugs, you have been drunk and had sex. God looks at that and 

says “I love you enough that i sent my son down. I don't care i want to love you. and be 

with you in your hard time Please let me be there with you.” he is Calling out to you. Yes 

we are not perfect. He is and he comes to our level and wants to be with us. cant you 

see how amazing that is. That the almighty God, the all powerful God, the God of love 

just wants to be with you.

He Showed me tonight that i have struggles but if you talk to him about them he 

will carry you and care for you. My biggest struggle is with Relationships. but God calls 

me to be a youth pastor. i can be so terrified around people and not show it. but i will 

hide go into the background. but sometime i feel like i am the background and no one 

notices me. its true. but it takes God to show me who i really am in the troubled times. 

he loves me and he loves you. so i encourage you talk to God about whats going on in 

your life. don't be afraid that you will feel rejected. it is a battle i am still fighting. i say 

don't be afraid for you and me. i am just being real with you. If you need some one to 

talk to E-mail me Facebook me i want to talk. i want to help you. I love you guys and I 

don't care what you have done. i just want to know you and help you through as best as 

i can.