It has been a LONG time since I posted something… Wow! Life since the summer, I should get you guys to catch up to what I have been up to!
Well I am in my Second year of College now, I cant believe that when I really started my Blog was a year ago soon. HAPPY BLOGIRTHDAY! I am still with the most beautiful girl in the world and I love her very much. I am studying hard and doing way better then my first year in college! Believe me I really am! But what I really want to talk about isn't what has been going on in my life but what has been going on with my heart.
I want to touch on a subject that is either obvious or that they don't even know it is a thing. My heart. Yes yes yes, I am human, right you know I have a physical heart even to the people who don't know who I am could guess I have a heart. The thing is the heart is a super fragile thing. The more and more it gets softened by God the more amazing things happen. I am finding that the more God softens my heart the more sensitive I am. It may seem it is a bad thing, Sometimes I am screaming out (Inside), “WHY?! I hate being this sensitive, God take this away! I don't want to be like this!” then I read the bible I listen to Mentors in my life, and the more it makes sense that yes, when you are more venerable with your life and with your heart, you ARE going to feel more pain and hardships. So read this:
1“I will send my messenger, who will prepare the way before me. Then suddenly the Lord you are seeking will come to his temple; the messenger of the covenant, whom you desire, will come,” says the Lord Almighty.
2 But who can endure the day of his coming? Who can stand when he appears? For he will be like a refiner’s fire or a launderer’s soap. 3 He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver; he will purify the Levites and refine them like gold and silver. Then the Lord will have men who will bring offerings in righteousness, 4 and the offerings of Judah and Jerusalem will be acceptable to the Lord, as in days gone by, as in former years.
- Malachi 3:1-4
Think about this for a second okay, You are a chunk of Silver vain. In this rock there is silver somewhere in it. So Jesus Takes you throws you in the fire to find the Silver. But to find that beauty in your life there is hard times that you have to endure of God taking your beautiful glow and then getting all your crap out.
Here is the full image, You are thrown in the fire where at first you are getting warm and you are getting to the point where you are glowing red and beautiful, then all of a sudden you start turning black you don't know where all of this black crust in coming from. Then you realize that all the ores and rocks are separating from the silver. So then it is painful work God takes all the black crust and rock off to make you beautiful again. You go through this process this refining process. You keep getting a beautiful glow and it is wonderful! Then all of the black crust and rock come up and happens over and over again.
Lets look at it in real life, The more God Breathes life and love into who you are the more your sin will be shown. Is it a bad thing? No, not at all! It is a beautiful thing God is doing in your life, no matter how much it hurt that the scrapping of sin is going off your heart. God is taking care of you. The more you accept his love the more your relationship with God grows the more your sin is revealed. It hurts! But there is something beautiful in your heart that God wants.
How do I see this in my life? I see it in my relationship with God and also with my Girlfriend. The more and more we pour love into each other, the more the crap comes up from the heart. Does that mean I am bad and I cant love her anymore? No, defiantly not. That means I want to love her more, because even though all of these things are surfacing between us the more it heals us and helps us get a better grasp of who we are. It is a painful process, but God has a plan to heal and save us from these hurts of our hearts. We walk with God and with each other. God is the Head of this relationship. When we start losing sight of that, thats when things go bad. Thats when we need God the most.
Yes, my heart is fragile it is sensitive and easily hurt. Thats why when someone give you their heart it is important that you care for it. It can shatter easily and will. Thats why you need forgiveness, Love and patience. Help each other and Let God help mend hurts in the relationship. Because without God things will be breaking, shattering and go into utter chaos without Jesus in your life.
