Feelings

Father, I come to you right now with mixed feelings. In many ways i am so happy. 

but there are time where i feel confused or unsure of what i am to do. Guide me For 

what you have in store in my life. may what i have to say open peoples eyes or inform 

them that there not the only ones and that there is a loving God like you. In your Sons 

Precious name, Amen.

Feelings. I want to start with that word. It defines how we feel: Happy, Sad, 

Excited, and the list goes on. It is funny lately i just have had mixed emotions about 

many things. I go threw ups and downs. Many times i want to tell people whats going on 

up in this Head of mine. For the most part i cant make sense of it. But i find what helps 

is talking to God. It is a form of clearing and organizing my mind. like wise with 

Blogging. i know i rant a lot. It is how i organize my Private world. 

Back to how feelings can change a lot of who you are. i have learned that people 

are different. I know it is a given but think about it. sometime you feel the ones close to 

you are just so in sync with who you are, the way you feel around them you feel good. 

they just feel normal they complete who you are. you seem to find out who you are if 

your aware of who you are. i want to say this though. Do not let people around mold 

who you are. Only you can do that. be strong and mold yourself who you want to be. Let 

Christ Mold who you are as well. i encourage that. we can all take something away from  

Jesus and use it to shape who we are.

Right now i have a couple friends on campus that make me feel good with who i 

am that i don’t have to hide who i am. Don’t hide who you are. You are special. i want to 

let you know that. if people put you down or don’t like you for who you are. thats there 

choice to loose some one as amazing as you. 

It is hard sometimes trying to release some part of who you are. Though’s are 

areas of your life with the most pain. you don’t want any one to see that part of you. I 

get that. I truly do. what i want to tell you. find some one you can confide in and tell 

them. if some one Loves you. they will not reject you. instead they will embrace you and 

tell you. i want to help you and be there for you.

I just paused for a moment just now... i just thought how God is Really Changing 

who i am for the Good. I feel such a Peace. As some of you know what my passion is, 

for some who don’t i want to let you know my passion is with youth. But to further that It 

goes way beyond that. it is what God has showing me I have a Passion for people. for 

you guys. God has Been burning that Fire more and more every passing day of college. 

I just love people. we are not perfect i know. but the passion is to help you. thats why i 

Blog. You are my inspiration. With out God Stoking this fire i would not write. 

Romans 8:30 “and those whom he Predestined he also called, and those whom 

he justified he also Glorified.”