There is one thing though, In my heart, I long for a father figure in my life. A Godly man to take me under his wing. It has always be a desire of my heart. I believe that people with out fathers also feel this to some degree. As a Guy, I never really have figured out what it is like to be a man. I have been guessing all my life.
This also plays a part of how I live life. Without a family, I have been playing a life of guessing. I have been relying on God all my life. I feel Stunted in my growth as a man. Sometimes in life I don't know how to do basic things like: how to properly get a job, Show confidence, know how to truly love people. I have been doing the best and the examples of all that have been filled with disfunction and greif.
But you know what. I have had a father with me my whole life. He is My Heavenly Father. Who has looked out for me, Has loved me and has never failed me not once in my life. Sure life gets rough and I sometimes think what God is doing, But God is teaching me, bringing me through hard times, and teaching me more then I could ever know. I know God has a Family lined up for me, I know one day God will Give me my desire. If it is Here on earth or if it is in Heaven. For If He gives me it on earth, it still wont be easy, but it will still be perfect and if it is in heaven, I will be with my brothers and sisters, i will have a family i can be with then too.
Right now As tears splash onto my keyboard, I just keep thinking: "I want a family to take me in and love me and accept me for who I am, Because being alone is hard." I think with the deepest hurts in ones life, thats where they are going to strive. I want to be a husband and a father one day. That is what i would love to do as a future ministry is help people in broken Family, Love them and bring them in.
That is my heart On this Fathers day. I Thank God for being my Father. I also want to say happy fathers day to Grandpa, Brad, and Richard. Who I think are the greatest fathers.
