A Message Cut Short

Hey Everyone,

    Everyone on campus who heard what I was talking about in chapel today. I did not have a lot of time to say what I wanted. Those who don’t live on campus and are family members, friends and other reader will have no idea what I was talking about. Well as some of you know us students could say something about our journey here at Pacific Life Bible College(PLBC). I only had a little time to say what I wanted to. So here is the full thing I wanted to say.

    I am a first year, so my adventure here at college has been a wild one. Emotions everywhere and just finding my identity in Christ. There has been moments in other blogs that I have shared what was going on. Here is a brief journey of finding my identity in Christ. As some of you heard, I was not always a Christian. There were moments where I could have said I was but I hated who God was. I did not always share beliefs that other christians held. For family who read this, they probably did not know or maybe they did. I hid it very well. I truly did not want to do anything with religion or God. Yea I went to youth group but I just tuned God out I was there in hopes that someone would reach out to me and be my friend. It never really happened. I had dreams to be successful and rich, to be an actor or a drama teacher. Then Jesus entered my life the real deal stuff. He changed me. He put the call of a youth pastor in my heart even if I did not want to be one. Jesus saved me. (brief testimony: ask me in you want to hear the whole thing.)

    This semester has been find out who I am even through Christ. For a year, I lived on my own before coming to PLBC. I thought I had a good grasp of what I knew of myself. I was comfortable happy and thought I had it all together. Coming here God has been working in me. He took the numbness away that everything is fine I dont have to be sad, and I dont have problems. In reality, I have found int he past month, I had so much pain so many insecurities about myself, God has and still is revealing why I have them and He is working with me.    

    There has been moments this semester where I have felt alone not needed. My mentality is to fight things on my own and not let others in because other are more important then me. I ignored my problems and never dealt with my own problems. When I talked to people or was out I am happy and myself. But I never let people see how much hurt was in my life. Coming here I saw the community the love people have for one another. I have seen how they treated me I never really got encouraged until here. At PLBC I have gained friends even though it may only be 1 or 2 quality friends and many great other friends. Everyone here has touched my heart in there own ways. I love everyone here at PLBC and I love being here.

    My tendency is to just fight alone if I have a problem it is only God and me who can work on it. I never let people in. God has given me some pretty amazing friends here that have helped me. You know who you are :). This semester is only the beginning I know God has so much more planned for me! God has changed who I am and taught my heart to trust again. There are walls that have broken down here and God is an amazing God. He love every one of you. I wish I could have had time to say in front of every one. What I want to tell you. Follow Gods plan in your life. If you dont know you calling yet Ask God for it. If you know your calling follow what God is calling you to do! He wants whats best for you. I can tell you through hard times if we persevere God will strength us no matter how weak we feel.

“For when I am weak, then I am strong.” 2 Corinthians 12:10