Friday, November 16, 2012

A Prayer of Unknown Sorrow.


WHY DO I HAVE TO FIGHT ALONE! GOD I NEED SOME ONE!. I know I have you I know

I can fight along side you God. BUT WHY DO I HAVE TO FIGHT ALONE IN THE 

LONELINESS WITH HOW COMFORT with out embrace. Thats something I miss. I wish I 

could have that embrace that love people surrounding me in this moment. When things 

are tough. Lord I know all I need is you. But I need people around me to pray for me to 

comfort me I need to feel the real thing of some ones embrace. For tears stream down my 

face. This lonely ness seeps in. WHY OH GOD! DO I FEEL LIEK THIS WHY DO I HAVE TO 

FIGHT ALONE!. God I need some one. I need your love to FIll me. I need some one. The 

Friend I need by my side the most one of them also need help. The other is helping. But I 

find I can not Interrupt I cant get the right Embrace from them. Lord why do I have a hard

 time with sharing my feelings with Guys. I cant do it. I dont feel the love fro them.  

Lord I dont know why I feel like this. LORD Why is this about me. Why does it have to be 

about right now. For my sorrow is SOOO DEEP. I Pray Lord for My friends that they will

 feel loved that they will have what I cannot. That embrace that love and someone beside

 them. I need that embrace that they have but I just simply dont deserve it. I am broken.

 Only you Lord can pick up my peaces. Lord I need you to show me what is causing this 

great sorrow in my heart.

2 comments:

  1. Oh John, I'll have to message you with my thoughts because I have a few. You are precious WE were made to be touched by embrace, to NEED it. I will be praying for you as you struggle with these feelings and I pray that there will be someone to whom you can find an embrace of a true friend. Your feelings are NOT unusual. I wish I could be there right now and hug the dickens outta you! As you heal you will find that it's not quite as threatening to embrace another guy. I love you, John. Very much!!

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    1. Hey Auntie thank you so much. God is So good. Last night He did so much. He helped me though a lot. The friends that i have here. have shown me that. God has so much in store for me. thanks a lot i love you to :)

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